Why do I hate this so much? Why do I dread coming here?
I cannot see what everyone else sees
Or maybe I’m blind to their reality.
I see no advancement, no hope, and no change
So ill gird up my loins and move on from place
I was always taught to go the extra mile
Never to stop, always wanting to be better.
Why do you want to stay?
What draws you time and time again to this place?
Is it the money? Is it the power? Or is it just the satisfaction of being a part of group
Hell no I won’t stay. I have nothing left to play.
I am like that lone card player….who was only dealt one out of thirteen spades.
So as I throw in my hand, my mind goes back to when I began
Determined to make a difference though I clearly couldn’t see
The fate that would be fall me
No wait; I wouldn’t call it fate…
This is NOT the end of me.
I have the tenacity to pick myself up and the courage to move forward.
Hesitation? There is always some of that
But as you can see I’m past that.
I feel a sense of complacency and this means I need to go
Don’t judge me…just accept this is who I am.
My heart is fixed and my mind is made up.
I refuse to settle for the things of this world that are not meant for me
But what I can say is that the lessons have been taught…and I can say that I have learned
Lessons I will pass on from one to the next
Hold out my dear friend…it’s only a test
I’m not sorry if I was distant, I’m not sorry if you didn’t know
You never tried to make the stories unfold
So don’t mind if I leave without saying good bye
There is no reason to waste ones breath on another’s ear that doesn’t care to listen but only to hear.
Miss you? Most definitely not
Care about you? We will leave that untouched
Frustration and stress have done their best to chip away at my soul
I have nothing more but a little fight left in me
I won’t stay where I am not welcome and I won’t stay where I’m not appreciated
So I’m slowly packing up
Slowly drifting away to fight another day
You can say I haven’t tried
You can say I wasn’t the best
But I know that I’m better than the rest.
So I have tried and I have realized that this is not for me
Don’t drag my name in the dirt like I know you will.
People are always good at smiling in your face but are quick to say the nastiest things
This road I’m trudging is all uphill so I don’t need deadweight to slow me down
Leave me be and let me be
When I leave, I’ll leave with dignity
Rest assure that I know there is something out there better for me
Waiting for me to take hold of what is truly meant to be
You can’t stop my shine, dare I say it you can’t stop my grind
My passions and dreams, I will protect with my life.
For a man has lost his way
Not when he is defeated
But when he has lost his conviction and lost his way
I am down but I surly am not out
For all who hear me, this is my decree
I’m moving on and you can’t stop me
I watched from the back seat as you all walked away
But on this day I can say
It will now be my back that you see
Walking away, strutting down that pathway
Reaching new heights, accomplishing impossible goals
I’m not finished you see
I won’t boast and I won’t brag
Ill simply allow my actions to speak for themselves.
And when all is said and done.
This race that has been run
I can sit down and look back over my life and see
You doubted me from the start
But oh look how the tables have turned
And how the script has been flipped
You like these rhymes I know you do.
I’m just pulling them out of the blue
But you won’t matter because I will have moved on.
I’m sure you will deny it, but I surly won’t buy it.
Don’t lie and tell me you won’t cry
Just accept what you see
Because you…ha….you weren’t for me.
And there is something out there better for me.