They say it is by our nature that we seek perfection,
Time and time again wanting all and nothing less
Striving to be the best, this is all that we know
We walk around with our heads held high
Pride deep down inside
This world cannot shake me and it surely can not break me
We set out to conquer the world
Dreaming no small dreams
Looking at those who dare stand in our way
Be removed from this place because you are utterly in my way
We fight and continue to fight, never showing what’s on the inside
But when was the last time we opened up and told out deepest concerns?
A strong outward appearance is deceptive at best, but nobody will believe my unrest,
For once I thought I had it all, for once I thought I had made it
Oh what a fool I was to fool myself into thinking that this was easy
I looked at that and said it’s a fact that I got that
As time went by oh I had to sigh, finding out that was just another failure
Picking myself up proved to be hard, but somehow I managed
I thought I had perfected that craft but soon oh so soon they said nope none of that
They let me go and they left me out to dry
A man could almost cry
This was just another mess up to mark in the books
A blessing in disguise I guest you could say, I didn’t always see it that way
As the tears of frustration filled my eyes.
Trying to move on with the little dignity I have left
A friend cries out with a proposition
I answer oh that’s a bet
Nervously wandering around like a blind man in the street
Hoping I wont be but a pitiful defeat
Oh but look how life has thrown its blows
Once again I am made a fool
Not mocked by the masses but mocked by my own heart and mind
Looking like a fool, oh why did I waste her time?
“oh you thought you were ready”
“Oh you thought you were fine”
Life tells me everyone else can have it but not you
Oh no it’s not meant to be so save us from your retched plea
You will be the odd man out
Time and time again they tell me its good to be different but lately I don’t see why
They don’t honor me
They don’t want me
They don’t even really care for me
I wish that I could be the one for that one
Humiliated and somewhat beat down
Oh but I’m perfect and I don’t know how this has come to this
It’s hard to seek perfection when perfection itself is simply impossible
Emotions running wild because I don’t know what to do
Emotions running wild because I don’t know who to run to
When the world is on my shoulders I want peace and a listening ear
Not a lecture, not a message, not a sermon for all to hear
I failed time and time again and what has happened is nothing short of what I just said
I’m the clown that they laugh at
I’m the person people mock and have no idea that they have hurt somebody close
They don’t understand because this and that never happened to them
They are great at what they do but me? That is never true
I’m like the kid who is picked last in a friendly competition
It’s quite funny that I say that
Being that I wasn’t last but close to the end
You couldn’t tell me how you felt, but after all they put you through
After all of those times that I stood by you
Trying to reassure you
I came in last place
I feel so small
Even though I know your heart I was still unable to sooth its rapid agitated beating
If they knew of this they would only laugh and call me names
You say that it shouldn’t matter because the players change the game
But I wasn’t picked to be on that team
So what is a man to do?
No wait please don’t tell me…
Get up and try again
Sometimes the fall is to great to simply keep up the pace
I’m no star player, nor do I seem to be man’s first choice
But remember the words that I say
I’m “perfect” in all of my ways…